Author: Stephen J. Williams

  • Manifesto

    In a perfect society it would not be necessary to say In a perfect society the politicians should enact a law which provides a regulation for who may be a poet and this perfect law would not deny any person entry to the guild but only say  If you do not tell the truth, you are not a poet.

    A person with a script is standing in the middle of a room, saying The first thing I want to say is that everything I’m going to say here is true.  Of course, you can’t tell everything you know about people unless you’re trying to hurt them and I don’t want to do that.  So I’m going to lie a bit here and there.  But as far as all the things that matter are concerned I’m going to tell the truth. And this may or may not be a reason to revise a perfect law.  I don’t care.  I don’t like poets, anyway. Most of them are just like me.

    Who is a poet, then?  I know one, a schizophrenic, whose head is nearly bursting with all sorts of delusions. He’s in the audience tonight. But you can’t see who it is. It’s dark inside. There’s another in the audience who has had a kind of cancer and has refused to die of it.  And another one I know who — and I must be careful here because, though I have asked if it might be possible to write such a line, it is still a line that is painful to hear — … No, I won’t write it. Privacy has to count for something.

    I say this only to remind you that there is a poetry of the audience.

  • Literary-hetero-potentates Rule, OK?

    Robert Dessaix (ed.): Australian Gay and Lesbian Writing; An Anthology (Oxford University Press).

    The title is wrong, of course, and the stupid scandal, which the book’s promoters no doubt thought a coup, could have been avoided, if anyone wanted to avoid it, by naming the book honestly. Not an anthology of gay and lesbian writing, this is a collection of writing about gays and lesbians. And, either way you look at it, an inadequate one.

    The “literary association of homosexuality”, Dessaix writes in his introduction, “with an abnormal closed social system [of Australia’s convict period] has given Australian writers the freedom to explore homosexuality by locating it inside other kinds of microcosms — in particular prisons, boarding-schools, ships, the armed-services and hospitals.” I don’t get it. What sort of “freedom” is that? A literary association with the abnormal and the closed gives writers a freedom to explore homosexuality by locating it in other kinds of microcosms, which also happen to be (it can’t be by chance!) abnormal and closed systems. This freedom, which does not look to me like a freedom at all, is apparently the same sort of freedom that allows Dessaix to put Patrick White and Elizabeth Jolley into the same category of “mainstream writers, none of whom would have identified themselves as ‘gay’…” The problem with White is that, although his homosexuality was not his ‘identification’, he did not hide it; he is the prime example of a ‘gay’ writer whose subject matter does not line up neatly behind his sexuality.

    And that is Dessaix’s — and his anthology’s — problem. This anthology is a demonstration of how narrow the concerns of gay writers can seem if one starts with the (unspoken) premise that gay writers are writers who write from the position of their sexual preference about matters relating to that preference. The truth is, of course, that gay writers and their writing in Australia are not limited in this way; and White is only one of the proofs of this.

    It would not have been hard to construct an anthology of writing by gay writers, men and women, that included work about heterosexual relationships and everything else. Such an anthology would have had the double advantage of showing that gay writers write about more than sex and their own sexuality, and of being a true anthology of gay writing. Instead, Dessaix retells the big lie: when gay writers write about sex they are writing about sex; when straight writers write about sex they are writing about life.

    This first major error leads Dessaix into others, equally damaging. He asks, for example, since much gay writing (by men) is short and fragmentary (so he claims), whether the form of the novel is “inherently heterosexual, unconsciously based on heterosexual paradigms about the generation of meaning through heterosexual coupling and reproduction …” David Leavitt, who provides a blurb for the book, might have thought this funny, if he read it at all. At least four important Australian novelists might at any time wander onstage and spoil Dessaix’s fantasy. Literature, after all, is the business of stating untestable truths; but I am not so sure we should allow anthologists the same licence.

    And why shouldn’t Australia’s literary-hetero-potentates be allowed to put their shoulders to the wheel of gayness? Supporters implore prospective purchasers to consider their commitment to the higher good of good writing, which is to be enjoyed despite the anthology’s short-comings. Leaving aside the real scandal that would greet an anthology of aboriginal writing that had whities in it, or the realler scandal of an anthology of writing about aboriginals that forgot to include great slabs of beautifully written bigotry — it is true that this anthology contains some fine writing. Dessaix must be praised for that, and for finding and acknowledging Jon Rose’s At the Cross: Growing Up in King’s Cross, Sydney’s Soho, though he does not publish any of it, I suppose because the permissions could not be obtained. He has chosen a good part of Dennis Altman’s The Comfort of Men, a book that is nearly important, and would have been, had it found a good editor. Peter Rose, Dorothy Porter and David Herkt make significant contributions to the weight of the poetry (a good deal of which is slight and clichéd).

    There are also mistakes. Dessaix thinks that Nigel Krauth’s novel, JF Was Here, is “brilliant.” I’m not convinced. I laughed out loud when I got to part describing the “club-club of fearful hearts”; and this book is infamous for its crass depiction of how someone dies of AIDS.

    Dessaix chooses a non-chronological approach in order to avoid, he would have you believe, the trek from oppression to celebration (as though Dessaix’s battalion of hetero-potentates would know anything about that!). AIDS does not figure in that appallingly simple-minded reckoning. The non-chronological presentation serves the interests of Dessaix’s preference to depict homosexuals as transgressive, asocial outcasts. He has simply left out much of the best new writing available for him to publish.

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  • Exposed

    For James, who died of AIDS on 18 September 1987.

    When death starts its process first we resist, hard to watch
    everything familiar and beautiful about the body shrink.
    We say to ourselves, “I want him back” or “Give me back
    that firm, healthy person!” When we are in the room with him
    all of us want to shout “But where is David?! Where has he gone?!”

    Then, all together, we have the knotted pain in the eyes,
    recognising him among us as a poor remaking of the other man
    we knew. “Michael, is that you I see? Is it really you?”
    Bringing gifts and asking questions we have brought and asked
    many times before, when he was still himself, is a test.
    “Here are some chocolates I thought you might like, and yellow roses.”
    Are these pleasures the new Paul knows? And who are you now?

    In the last year his head is full of creatures and animal hate,
    wide-eyed and terrified to live in the world where everything dies.
    If he is fresh and strong in the morning, he is warm-blooded, huge,
    growling in the garden. Afternoons in the heat he is worn blue
    as a slim lizard, lies about, breathless, bumps into the furniture.

    The old friends leave him, while he makes the real ones new.
    No one dares come near who cannot answer questions:
    “Are you friend or foe?” “Will you fight me, even now,
    in the middle of all this?” and “Will I die? Will I truly die?”

    Before the visiting hours the family takes a few stiff drinks,
    wanders in the numb maze of the hospital, with threads hanging
    behind them. All our tongues are pins and needles for lack of use,
    or telling lies. “Oh, he has cancer, a tragic disease; I did tell him
    not to smoke.” “Thank you for the card. He likes it very much,
    and sends you all his love.” “He is better and we hope for a remission.”

    Afterwards, alone, he practises the scavenging happiness
    of birds, picks up crumbs from his own story, cries and laughs,
    vomits the soft dinner, starves quietly and more surely
    than anyone who waits for justice. Every sleepless night
    some part is stolen and in the morning he is less there.

    He is awake behind closed lids, while we dream
    of planting onions, and hope for death. Even those who don’t
    believe can see he becomes more real; the soul is exposed
    and visible, resting on a cracked edge before it goes.


    Published by ‘A First Hearing’, ABC Radio (Australian Broadcasting Corporation), 31 December 1989, and then in Overland, Number 120, 1990, and various anthologies.
    This poem received the John Shaw Neilson Award for Poetry from the Fellowship of Australian Writers in 1989 (awarded 22 February 1990).

    When you say yes… say yes to safe sex.
    When you say yes… say yes to safe sex (Information flyer of the Victorian AIDS Council) Written by Stephen J. Williams
  • Middle life transcribed for ’cello

    My lessons began with ‘A Bass to Heartsease’,
    The harder work done on grand piano,
    Comforting and accurate as a mother.

    For being even-handed, there was the lesson
    Of double stops; in perfect fifths, delivering sound
    Which once was meant to be the sign of God.

    I’ve learned already, though cannot master it,
    That tension and position are closely linked.
    No failure — and there are many — leaves me worn.

    I squawk for hours, content with struggle, and pay
    For patience and advice while teachers sigh (“If only
    He were ten or twelve — we’d go farther, sooner”).

    I’m late to understanding.  It’s a common fault.
    At 33, I could give up writing for the chance
    To know how one note, rightly sounded — round,

    Toneful, hair clinching string from top to end —
    Shakes the matter in my skull and rests all trouble.
    Still to come are mysteries, endless scales, harmonics.

  • Flyer for Perseverance Poets readings [1993]

    Flyer for Perseverance Poets readings, 1993.
    Flyer for Perseverance Poets readings, 1993.
  • Excerpt from ‘Tales of the Living’, Outrage, November 1993, pp. 70-71

    … In his just released brilliant collection of poetry, biography and fiction The ninth satire, Melbourne writer Stephen J. Williams covers wider territory. He includes ‘First and Last Words’, excerpts from a journal written and tape-recorded by James during the last four months of his life in 1987. The irony of us reading his description of his failing vision is both powerful and moving. Williams follows this piece with ‘Uncle Stranger’, another editing of someone else’s work, this time the diary of a member of a care team providing services to a PLWA.

    The expected story isn’t told because no one behaves as they should. The PLWA is a bisexual husband with a wife and kids. The whole family is pissed off and angry. The wife doesn’t like having gay carers in the house. The kids have nits and are “a mess”. The carers are over-worked, underappreciated and stressed out. Nothing is neatly resolved, even when the husband dies.

    With these two pieces, Williams demonstrates that AIDS biography can be constructed in ways other than as an almost classical tragedy with pre-determined roles.

    As the nineties plod on, our need to hear the bereaved significant other’s story is likely to diminish. It’s now familiar territory for too many of us. The challenge for those inscribing AIDS will be to tell tales of the living …

    Gary Dunne, reviewing the current literature on AIDS