Tag: poetry

  • [When he is leaving]

    When he is leaving and opens his arms around me
    I know there is one place I will be small and human,
    Breakable, weak, most unlike my other self.

    Lips should be the most telling part. Kissing the rough,
    imperfect surfaces to speak another language,
    I learn how smart a silence is. And also, how

    love will turn my head off like a light,
    leave me stupid, thick and clouded honey.
    It’s just as well I’m dumb with love—

    If I thought of danger or of pain, calculated futures
    or the interest gained, I would be alone.

  • [Mostly there is just this]

    Mostly there is just this
    emptiness, being

    ignorant of truths
    that might make us happy.

    Dreams peopled by strangers
    I’ve become familiar with,

    tonight, the stranger is a lover
    rejecting me and accepting me.

    “I’m afraid of you,” he says
    as we begin the slow rock.

    “And I am afraid of you.”

  • The high price of travelling

    Even though our eyes are bruised
    from reading all the daily news,
    we think of Rome and Paris in the Springtime,
    of telephoning long lost friends,
    of leaving our hearts on tables in expensive restaurants.

    We are like terrorists edging toward some word
    of reason our commander never speaks.
    We begin by opening a book on holidays
    in Uganda, which has a preface telling how
    to sit quietly in living room chairs
    while they become electric with possibilities,
    and read a chapter showing how to move
    our eyes to the corner of their sockets
    so that we can look (without having the appearance
    of looking) at things we do not want to see,
    then flick the pages for some clue
    on how to get there, but all we find
    are reasons not to go.

    It is yet another year of no holidays
    in Uganda, where we could travel
    with lists of missing persons,
    sit and look at complacent animals burning
    in the hot light, and the chance of not seeing ourselves
    would be unlikely.

  • The whole year travelling

    “I’ve been trying to say this for years
    And find it like a spider on my lip:
    Arriving, there’s a padlock on the door
    Protecting nothing but a window
    In one wall, and a double bed
    Complete with holes—none of which I need.
    My agent provides this free. The squalor
    And the shit coming for me: hurt dogs
    Squeal in the street below; Vespas spew smoke
    Through every crack; and prostitutes repeat
    Their life, life-long story in chopped up verse.

    “I drop on the bed after a whole year travelling
    — Noise, decay, clamour at shutters
    As I sleep, and fan blades above me swing
    In great circles

    “At the centre of the world,
    Two halves scraping unequal edges with each other.”

  • Hunger

    Some of the men cry, and many of the women
    Make impossible devotions. Some others
    Who are neither men nor women go about
    Their work invisibly — or else, becoming.
    And behind a wall the gymnast (having managed
    To balance for a very long moment the spectators’
    Fear of falling) thinks he sees a spinning wheel
    And fire in the eye of a monster. The world
    Is like this, he says, there is no need
    For prophesy — it is all here.

    Watching this trick was a man in the doorway
    Now turning to leave and covered with sun.
    I notice his quiet walk — the way he steps
    On his shadow’s toe, lifting a foot and balancing
    There each step in the light like a wire artist,
    That close to the edge. Out in the streets
    You can see if you look, the Hunger presents
    Himself like a man in black suit and bow-tie;
    A noble savage who’d rather dress than eat.

  • Epic red

    Light up the sky red
    with a red blaze — not blood
    red, not even a patriotic flag
    red that could be politically
    hazy and scared red — but a
    brilliant and artificial red
    like good communists make
    in factories. Then paint.
    Paint the house, embassy,
    the politicians, dictators,
    tyrants, all the ordinary
    people and their comrades;
    paint them all top to
    bottom and the middle parts
    too, especially the penises.
    Bright red penises of Russia
    standing up to be counted
    for mother country. —And
    don’t forget the women:
    the women who take out
    their finest brushes to
    paint the red lines in
    the eyes of their sons.
    They get down on their hands
    and knees to wipe the paint
    off the factory floors;
    they stand at sinks for hours
    scrubbing the paint spots
    out of their husbands’ shirts;
    they wait outside the operating
    theatre when paint messes the
    mechanic’s table; they cry
    and scream the throat of Russia
    red-raw till the whole land
    coughs up blood. Ordinary
    people understand this sort
    of red. It’s the red leaders
    use for wild speculations and
    artists paint radiant futures
    with it. Red is an image
    by itself. Red is hell. Red
    is unnatural, oppressively hot.
    Red like the inside of a mad
    animal’s mouth. Blood-sucking red.
    Red on the screen of the blood
    film. Historical red. The color
    of revolution red. The red hammer
    of education. A red sickle
    to chop off heads. A shade of red
    to blame for everything. Women’s
    red. Menstruation red. Red
    faces and red sex. Red rage.
    Who made the Red Sea red?
    The Russians did. Who invented
    red herrings? The Russians did.
    Who built the pyramids?
    The Russians did. Who shot down
    the Korean plane? The Russians
    did. Who made America what
    it is today? The Russians did.

  • ‘Stroke of the eye’

    A woman with beans works
    Uncomplaining, shuffling them
    On wooden platters

    Before the eye
    Of a prying city
    Turning to what’s believed

    Is distant past,
    Almost forgotten now,
    Where all remains

    Unchanged: how long
    Do we suppose
    This stroke of eye

    Will leave us satisfied
    With likeness,
    Or her,

    With likeness
    To our unreal world,
    Not troubled?