the dear departed
lovers that have gone
angels that once terrified us
threatening to bring death
so near as love
sometimes return.
these lost loves,
whose provenance and history
is harder than a coin
passing hand to hand
through all the dull business
of the commonwealth,
arrive at our aching arms
unexpected.
the strange gifts of a stranger,
a once familiar mind.
thoughts that tasted like water,
answering an ancient need.
we may go down to the shore
and take a boat to be more
completely under a sky we knew
at a happier time,
remember love
like one who is newly blind remembers color,
listen to our bodies sing
their old pain.
our untasted souls,
we hoped would feed another life
to propagate our own,
make, at any spot we stop to feel,
the feast of questions
loving is.
Tag: poetry
-
the dear departed [lovers that have gone]
-
In museums of beautiful art
In each great hall an exhausted tourist or a lover of art
whose life has come to this fine point, standing still as a sign,
is troubled to learn the truth of his companion’s mind, and
cannot calculate how far he’s come to know so little.He knows the museums of beautiful art are full,
as much with pain as love; and all the masters, old and new,
knew just what we go to them to do… At every other corner
a blood-soaked scene, vengeful, pitiable, famous or obscure,is excessive proof—with martyrs, slaughtered innocents, rapes,
betrayals—the world was shaved by a drunken barber; and,
at the next corner, the beautiful starvation of youth, which, like a theory
facts have not yet spoiled, reminds us of all longing unfulfilled.It’s true, as we’ve been told, every dreadful martyrdom
must run its course. Paris, if he is not in love, is just a city
full of old stuff, unhelpful, jaded waiters, and dog shit.
Fall flat on your face in Rue Saint Denis, and Parisians laugh.On such a day—beyond where Veronese’s butcher-cook hacks
away just above Christ’s head; and, following the signs, in the hall
past the spot where Leonardo’s Mona Lisa woodenly endures
the tourist crush—one more painting waits for him…Saint John, the Baptist. From within the black world where nature
and hope have disappeared, the saint’s left hand rests upon his heart;
and his right arm, pointedly, shows the way to another world.
He steps into the traveller’s light and, with a kind word and gestureto offer, smiling, says, “I know that you, too, suffer.”
Meanings that will not bring words to a traveller’s mouth,
the wounds he spoke of to himself at night, are recognised,
fixed forever, in the master’s art and the smiles of artless saints.Originally published in Out of the Box: Contemporary Gay and Lesbian Poets, edited by Michael Farrell and Jill Jones, Puncher & Wattmann Poetry, 2009.

-
Dinner at Whistler’s
The interior, like a fresh, young face,
is a masterpiece of simplicity.Traffic moves along straight lines
between what is said and what is done.At the dinner table, even the menus
are painted to illustrate the feast.Desire is a red plate.
Love is a black bowl.It is ironic that his mother,
now an exhibit in Paris,is surrounded by impressionists
and looks very sad.Aesthetes imagine a blue square
is the most beautiful space.Peacocks and all other flightless birds
no longer lay claim to parts of the sky.The quarrel of art and money is over.
Needing each other, they kiss and make up.The rooms we lived in, the meals we made,
the words we spoke, themselves all masterworks,numbered, rotting, forgotten,
will no longer be the cause of any emotion.A regret, like a tremor, wakes us.
He goes to piss against the wall.I am the stranger here, in the room
made for blue and white porcelain.This poem appeared first in Out of the Box: Contemporary Gay and Lesbian Poets, edited by Michael Farrell and Jill Jones, Puncher & Wattmann Poetry, 2009
-
The whole truth
Clichés tumble out of lovers’ minds
Like bargains at a jumble sale.
All the scraps they think are ‘finds’
Are hand-me-downs whose colors paled.New lovers walk around in rags
No decent mum would have her kids in:
Straight, or bi, or screaming fag,
There is no haute couture of loving.Unseemly, smelly, dirty things
No civil person does, or has;
Turgid, horrid, lumpy limbs;
Quantities of juice and gas—These are what must be endured
For seconds of a feeble pleasure.
Lasting joy is not assured
By love’s insipid, tawdry treasures.This poem was originally published in Overland Number 1, 1996.
-
Apology
Today I sat with coffee and newspaper
through the lunch hour
trying to catch up with the whole world’s tragedy.
Over the weekend was the calmest, coldest Sunday
for lunatics with guns, and there are six dead.
Monday all the wounded, the heroes, the neighbours,
the journalists, the dogs and cats,
have interviewed each other.
But today I was not living in a real world
and I must apologise for this.
For this one hour, when I was not working and distracted,
with time to think how life is,
I remembered Figaro and Susanna, Cherubino’s love songs,
and hummed Mozart, hummed through blood
and black banners which came off on my hands.
Last night one fine lover pushed pain aside
and held me still—the best duet, the friendliest, and quietest.
So, I’m sorry, today the world
was not in the least bit tragic, not even a little sad.
I could not cry for any pain.
Happiness has hardened me against all sorrow.Originally published as part of War poems: for baritone voice, alto sax, cello, vibraphone and piano, performed by Grant Smith. Composer: Andrée Greenwell. An OzOpera production at the Melbourne Opera Centre, 10 and 11 September 1999, and at the Barossa Music Festival on Sunday 3 October 1999.
You must be logged in to post a comment.